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Don’t Give Up… Get Dirty.

I innocently said, “I’d love to do something like that”. Never knowing just how much I meant it.

Eight months ago, when I started this particular leg of my journey, I considered myself unmemorable. Call it a lack of self confidence. I had this tragic habit of looking at anything challenging and assuming it was beyond me. What a terrible way to live.

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This last year has been wonderful for me, even the pitfalls and struggles have served to build me up and, in the end, make me stronger.

Because without challenges, we cannot grow. And without growth, we do not live.

I’m not going to say that it was meeting any one person that changed my outlook, or that one day I woke up a new woman. Though there are certainly people and events that contributed; I have found that you’re more likely to be changed by a series of small, nearly unnoticeable events than one cataclysmic happening.

The obstacle course was just one day. Just one more thing I’m able to do. Just one more reason to be proud of who I am.

The difference between me today, and the me I was a year ago, is that not only do I know what I need to do to improve who I am, and where my life is going, but I’m not afraid of it. Whether I am alone or supported by family and friends, I will succeed. All I need to do… is do it.

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I’m smart enough to know when I’ve hit a limit and when I’ve just given up. Though I work hard, I haven’t yet worked ‘as hard as I can’. Our breaking points have nothing to do with the strength of our bodies – they are determined entirely by the strength of our will. The moments when I give up, they have never been because I can’t go on. They have always been because I won’t.

It doesn’t make me a failure. It gives me something to work on.

It might seem odd, to have learnt so much about who I am, in the confines of a gym. But it’s true. What before was “I can’t” has become “I will” – and as I do more and more of what I had assumed was impossible for me, (because it simply wasn’t ‘me’), I realize just how far I have yet to go. This isn’t daunting. It’s exciting. What am I going to do tomorrow, or a year from now, that I have never yet dreamed of?

What an exhilarating rush, to realize that your potential is so vast, you could never imagine the full breadth and width of it.

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Next Up. Spartan Sprint.

 

What Are You Capable Of?

Climbing Upward

There is a great deal to be said for accomplishing something that a former version of yourself would have been convinced she could not do. There is more to be said for realizing that, while it’s a great achievement, it doesn’t represent a fraction of what you are capable of.

It is easy to say, life is good enough, I’m doing ok – lets not mess with the status quo. Seems like a solid, responsible thing to do. It’s not. The status quo is there for you to beat, stomp on, crumple up and eventually leave behind you in the dirt. If you don’t, you are doing the least responsible thing you can, because you’re not living up to your potential. And if you’re not living up to your potential, you are wasting the most precious commodity you have. Your life. (And, as I’m sure my mother would be happy to tell you, wasting what you’re given is not even remotely responsible of you.)

Why the speech? I beat a milestone this weekend, actually in a way, I beat a few. I started kickboxing because it was something I had always wanted to try, and never thought I would do. Beginning was a huge stepping stone for me. Because of this, I began to learn a little bit about strength, about confidence and a whole lot about myself.

kickboxingFor example. I’m not a mouse. Some people would tell you that I am, but I’m not. A mouse wouldn’t have been willing to compete in a karate/kickboxing tournament. But I did. And came home with a Silver in Sparring. Is the little trophy sitting on my shelf going to change the world? The chances are slim. Did it bestow me with some all-powerful skill? I don’t think so. (But if it does I’ll let you know.) But that doesn’t make it any less of an achievement to be proud of. I can tick off another box, move another step forward, and that is always a reason to hold your head high.

Today I got to trade in my white hand wraps (the sign of an un-tried beginner) for the happy glow of yellow wraps — a sign to all that I have moved up in the world. I’m still a beginner, which is perfectly fine because I am aware of just how much I have to learn; but I am better than I was, and will continue to improve.

I’ve set a new goal for myself – if you’re curious you can find out more about it -> here.

My point today? Go for it. Even if the current version of you can’t hack it. Because the ‘you’ of the future can, and if you don’t give her a chance; you will never discover what you are capable of.

Don’t you want to know?